Teachings
Query
I'm feeling a bit down actually because I seem to take one
step forward and two steps back.
I have that familiar feeling of failure and that too much is being asked
of me.
Reply
You are far from being a failure, you are a successful business
woman and a very caring
daughter. Both areas are making extreme demands on you. Realise
this is your life
situation and not the real you. You are beyond all this and so much more.
Only meditation
can put it all in perspective, you are the beautiful Consciousness that
plays out through
you. When the going gets tough, the tough meditate. It is there to
nurture and support you
in the hard times. Often when we feel overwhelmed by events the least
thing we want to is
meditate but that is where the help lies.
Query
I am having great difficulty in finding time to practise
meditation, my life and work is so
demanding and I have so much to cope with.
Reply
I just wanted to encourage you to start a regular practice
daily. You mentioned some days
you felt like not getting up to meditate. I find it beneficial to just get
out of bed and
meditate straight away, no choice involved. Do not let the mind persuade
you otherwise. The
benefits of it carry themselves throughout the day. I know how hard
it is to establish a
regular practice and I always say that is the hardest part of meditation.
But one needs to
be aware of the tricks the mind can play to stop the practice itself i.e.
cannot be
bothered, this will never work etc. etc.
You have problems to cope with in your daily life and meditation strengthens
you coping
ability. Time in meditation is never wasted. The eternal light is
always there to support
and comfort you in difficult times, just be available to it. I even ask
it for help when the
going get tough, its love will always find its way through, know that this
support is always
there for you. We are given problems in life in order for us to grow
in strength. If life
was blissful we would never need to meditate. The benefit of problems
is that when they
grow, the only place we can turn is inwards to deal with them.
Query
I am not sure if I am meditating properly or if its working.
Reply
The only way your meditation practice will get off to a
good start is if you have the right
attitude towards it. It is not something to be fitted into a schedule
and just done and
that's it. Meditation is life changing, you are in contact with the divine
source. It has
to be respected and honoured. Feel blessed that you are able to meditate,
this is the
greatest gift of love you can give to yourself. Do not listen to the
minds sabotaging ways.
You have the ability to overcome all the obstacles. See meditation
as a daily treat not a
chore. If you get spare moments, meditate with enthusiasm. Once you
start reaping its
benefits you will get the bug.
Query
I can meditate some of the time but then I get overwhelmed
with all the problems and tasks I
have to do. I end up doing nothing well because I have low energy levels,
feel a failure and
give up again. My doctor has just told me I must reduce my stress levels
or get ill. Obviously, I
simply can't be ill - too many things rely on me functioning.
Reply
I have been thinking about your situation and you need to
realise you are on your spiritual
journey. It is not going to happen next week, or next month or even
next year. You are on
it now. Meditation is not just about putting the practice in, we need
to be trained in
dedication, devotion, patience and a hundred and one other things.
This can only be done in
our daily lives. We are given the coal face of our daily lives to
grow spiritually.
Your life needs to be viewed from a spiritual perspective. Consciousness
is flowing through
you every day, not just when sitting in meditation. It has been flowing
into your creative
work. Rejoice that you have been able to create wonderful things
that will be enjoyed in
peoples homes for many years to come. It has been your gift to humanity,
never
underestimate it. Yes there will be problems and frustrations but
these are given to us to
enable us to grow. We grow most from the difficult times. If
everything was perfect we
would not need to meditate and we would not seek spiritual growth so urgently.
As you work thru the chaos, see it as part of God's plan. What can
you learn from it? How
can you grow more spiritual from it. We need to flex our spiritual
muscles before we are
given more consciousness, we have to prove our worth first and more will
flow. It is a
joyous journey, find the joy.
Query
I am begining to understand what you mean. I am enjoying
concentrating on my breath and can
feel the difference it is making to my body. My mind is still very active
but I am begining
to slow it a little. My body is still very stiff - but is geting more flexible
with
practice.
Reply
As with the yoga we will have to really work on your focusing inward on
your breathing, so
much is lost if you just use it as an exercise routine. You cannot
possibly learn these
things over night and you have to be kind to yourself. One has to
drop the end gaining and
be content with what you have achieved up to now. Look back and see what
you have discovered
up to now. Yoga is a vast subject how could you expect to learn it
all. The hardest step is
the first step and that is to turn inwards, be the observer of your thoughts,
witness what
the mind comes up with. You are not your body and you are not your
mind you are the
witnessing awareness. With meditation we have to get rid of alot of
mind rubbish to make
way for the peace to enter, it is a clearing process. The rewards
are great and will come
with practice.
Query
Please help me. What does it say in the ancient writings
about the amount of service we should give to our parents? I know we are here to make as much progress as we can towards
enlightenment but also to be of service to others. What are the limits of this service? Some carers sacrifice
their entire lives to look after a parent or spouse. Why is this not what we should all do? I'm struggling here.
Reply
I have been reflecting about your mother and how I have
dealt with difficult situations in
the past when I have had to flak personally. The secret is to feel
yourself invisible, in
the presence that exists, and let all the digs or insults pass through
you. It is as though
they have nothing to stick onto and just dissipate. If the same things
were said to a nurse
there they would have no effect on her. So try to not take them personally,
even if they are
aimed at you. Your Mum has to take it out on someone and you are very handy.
This is a
process she has to go through, you have the choice of how to react to them.
In this case
not react. Do not let them trigger past emotions, be in the present, if
you can maintain
your meditative stillness this is the greatest gift you can give your mother
in her time of
need.
We give compassion to others but we also need to give compassion to ourselves
There
are physical limits to the amount of care we can give others, you need to
access what is
practical and workable with all the other demands of your work etc. Do not
let guilt
overcome you, I know you are doing everything you possibly can. Look at
your options
objectively not emotionally. Ultimately stay with the love you have for
each other and be
there as a support for her.
Query
Still trying to meditate with varying success rate. Just
had my sister in law to stay who is
lovely but has quite profound mental problems coupled with depression and
thyroid
difficulties. Eckhart Tolle writes about negative vibes being contagious
and although aware
of this found personal disturbance arose once she had gone (after 10 days)
– had enjoyed
their visit but found it mentally quite exhausting. Seems to have affected
my sleep pattern
some nights – when sleeping very lightly and not finding it very refreshing.
Anything I can
do about this? I know it will gradually diminish.
My sister in law meditates etc and understands “power of now”
intellectually but is
completely debilitated by her state of mind giving dreadful panic attacks
at times and
simulating heart attack – she has been for loads of tests etc and
is constantly exhausted: I
know that I can do little for her but it is difficult to be completely detached.
Reply
I am glad you have benefited from reading the Power of Now,
I feel he is easily
understandable, particularly as we grapple with our understanding of consciousness.
Meditation does fluctuate and is never what I call constant. How much
easier it would be to
meditate in a convent way from life distractions. As I regularly complain
to my teacher
about life's demands, he keeps reminding me this is the way to deeper meditation.
As only
when life gets too much on the outside do we have the impetus to turn inwards.
If life was
perfect we would not need to meditate! The secret is to keep meditating
despite everything,
then you really start to reap the benefits.
In particular you mentioned your sister in law. Yes, we can be compassionate
and supportive
but ultimately it is their problem not yours. Detached is not cold blooded
as it first
appears, we have to self empower them. They have to realise that it is within
their power to
heal themselves and then they will feel better about themselves. Too
often people get stuck
in the victim role - "why does this always happen to me?"etc. Do not collude.
My teacher
has been very strict with me, saying you can choose to be depressed or not.
Quite harsh
words really but can be a wake up call.
When we are born we are in a blissful awareness and this is our birthright.
But life takes
the stuffing out of us and the bliss gets covered over, yet it always remains
there and this
is what meditation reconnects us with. I feel if you sister in law was more
connected to
this, it would put her problems more in perspective. We are not our body
and we are not our
mind, we are the blissful awareness. Meditation cannot be grasped intellectually
it has to
be experiential and your own personal experience. Then you know it
is real. I do one to
ones if that might be of any help for her, which could set her off on the
right road or
there is always the reiki I do as well. I gather she lives a distance
away but perhaps when
she next visits or she would be most welcome to come to a class.
I often encourage to watch your thoughts ie mental activity and by doing
so you can see the
detrimental and destructive ability of your mind. You are not your
mind, you are the
witnessing awareness. Thinking is anxiety making and exhausting, effecting
the body at the
same time creating psychosomatic symptoms. The mind can be so powerful
if you let it. The
answer is disempower it by meditating.
When you are with someone who has negative vibrations, they will seek transference
to you.
So it is up to you to stop this. I find meditating whilst they are
staying with you (not
easy I know) puts a ring of protection around so you that the negative vibrations
cannot
penetrate. If they do not want to go away bundle them up and send
them down to the centre
of the earth to be destroyed. Shift them with determination.
We have to clear our energy
fields of mental activity in order for the peace to have space to flow in.
This is the
greatest gift you can give your sister in law is a peace environment. You
can teach her how
you meditate. Do not worry about sleep patterns just meditate in the
intervals. Meditation
to four times better than sleep and it is easier to drop into it from a
restful state. Just
let meditation effortlessly creep into your life.